October 2010
“You know what sucks? Finding out that everything you believe in is complete and...”
– Joseph Gordon Levitt (500 days of summer)
“Droll thing life is—that mysterious arrangement of merciless logic for a...”
– Marlow (Heart of Darkness)
September 2010
Homecoming.
I’M NOT GOING! Yeah. That’s a big fat NO on my senior homecoming dance. I’ve gone for the past three years, yet I’m not going my last year. Why? Hahah. I’m not in the mood. Literally. Money? Not willing to spend it. People? Don’t want to deal with the party situation. Not now. Date? HELL NO! I do not want to be set up with a guy/friend that I haven’t...
insanity.
I find it ridiculous that I still expect so much. That I HOPE for so much. That what it was like a month ago is still possible now even though I know the truth. The truth that my hope is all false. I fill my head with dreams that will never come true. Dreams that were put there by others. They help believe that something could be so true and so pure. I think that’s what made it more...
Sister's coming home tomorrow!
Omgosh. I’m so excited. I guess I’ve secretly missed her more than I let myself believe. Well, on top of some of the other stuff going on. But yeah. I can’t wait to see her! I’m sad that I have work tomorrow though. I just wanted to spend the whole day with her after school. It would be nice. But maybe after my shift she can go shopping at my store since she was dying for a...
idk.
With certain aspects of my life, I know, I can be pesimistic. It’s obvious. I have a bad attitude towards certain subjects in my life. But then there are the rare moments. Where I step back and smile because I am blessed. It’s amazing how things can change in so little of time. I thought everything was set. I thought everything was okay. I knew that things could be better but I was...
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confusion.
This past week has just been a hurricane of pain, tears, and utter complexity that my mind cannot comprehend. The serenity that my mind had a couple weeks ago is no longer there and I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m trying to concentrate on school and occupy myself with work and when I’m free, I dance it out. But there are only so many things I could do to make calm the...
Hiro!
Me: When was the last time you saw him?
Hiro: "not allowed" and we just said Hi and how are you?
Me: Oh. Okay.
Hiro: But I looked cute with my nice hair and nice jacket compared to his ugly tank. Sooo...I WIN!
Me: Hiroshima, you always win. AHAHAHAH!!!!!
Day 10
Write a letter to your boyfriend.
Dear You,
You make me happy. You make me feel like all those stinking cliche love movies and a disney princess. You make me feel special. You make me feel worth something. I haven’t felt that way in a very long time. (fyi, this is going to be kind of cliche) You’re different. You’re not like the guys from Oxnard. You are everything I was unable...
I'm super late on my Tell Me Challenge:
Day 11: Who was the last person you held hands with?
Wayne.
Day 12: Who was the last person who you liked/crushed on?
Wayne.
There for you.
boygirlconvos:
Boy: I’m standing alone on this Babe.
Girl: We’ll make it work.
Boy: I’m going against the world.
Girl: And when you’re fighting the world; I’ll grab your hand, look up at you, and smile.
Day 9
Your definition of love.
Well, let me say that I believe there are two sections of love. There’s I love you and I’m in love with you. There is a difference. But in order to be in love, you have to love the other person. I just wanted to get that out there. Anyways…
My definition of love…it’s kind of long. It’s when you are yourself. You are naturally yourself...
For you, WO AI NI.
wordsoflove:
Oh go to hell you dumb bitch
Make peace with the fact that people change all...
Watchawhdree:
julianpie:
joshuanoahlasky:
meekxspeak:
davidisdope:
(via junqlecat, kennyyyy)
This was probably my favorite part.
I always wanted to play make-believe in ikea but my sisters never wanted to play with me.
Day 8
What do you guys do often?
Honestly, text. It’s depressing but what can we do? Distance will do that to a relationship. He’s always busy with homework and me with dance. Just kind of hard to have time to talk on the phone. And I fail because I haven’t gotten a webcam yet so we can’t even ichat.
But when we are together, something we do often, more like the entire time is...
hmph.
Wayne: *sigh*
Me: Why so sad?
Wayne: When's the next time we're going to see each other?
Me: *sigh*
I really don't know the next time we'll see each other. That terrifies me. It was two weeks of not seeing him and I died a little because of it. He can't come up here anymore and there are certain things that are stopping me from going down there. Even the past three times he came to visit, I at least knew I was going to see him soon. But this time...it was hard saying see you soon to him because I don't know when "soon" really will be...
I wish I had a lock on my door.
I guess tying a scarf and double knotting it will do for tonight…I’m still scared though.
The fear.
I don’t like being fearful. It’s just not good on the system. But my heart can’t help but beat faster the closer I get. My body can’t help but tense up whenever I’m closer. I can’t help but bite my lip out of anxiety. I don’t know if it’s a good idea to go back or I should find another place. But either way. I don’t want to go to sleep fearful....
Day 7
What movie did ya’ll see the last time you were together?
Kill Bill Vol. 1…kinda? Yeah. Not really. We were talking and he wasn’t paying attention. haha. I enjoy watching movies with him if we’re at my house. I do not like, nor do I ever, want to go to a movie theater with him. It’s not one of those things where “I don’t want to go out in public with my...
My eyes began to burn. So I took out my contacts…my eyes still burn.
Day 6
What did ya’ll do the last time you hung out?
The last time we hung out was…two mondays ago? Yeah. Sorry, been too long. He stopped by my house and we just hung out. Went on the computer. Took a nap or two. He took me to practice and Emanon attacked him. Hahaha. Then we went to boba and he had to go. Not much, right? But honestly. It was the happiest moment I had in the past two...
HELP RAISE MONEY TO HELP CANCER!
jjaydef:
Would you like to donate to the American Cancer Society? Well, I’m doing the Relay for Life and my lazy ass forgot to go door to door and stuff and I need to raise $100 by Friday, yes- this Friday. So come on you brand buying, kicks getting, spending money on things you want dont need ness- have a heart. I’m sure you could spare like $10 or something, anything helps! Let me know if...
Why do gay boys always have the best comebacks?
BECAUSE THEY’RE SASSIER THAN STRAIGHT GIRLS!
Damn you Ero. Damn you.
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I like surprises.
The pure surprises. Where I have no clue that it’s coming what-so-ever. Like the surprise birthdays that they never know about. Or the subtle surprise gift that you get on your anniversary. Not exactly those ones but that same feeling. I love those surprises.
Too bad I’ve never experienced any of those surprises…sad face. Haha. Everything in my life is either cliche or partially...
that's so nebula: Reblog if you wrote "love" on... →
smellslikejasmine:
dana-all-over:
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it’s still there :)
julian asked what it was and i told him. he was like “you’re an amazing person. i knew i judged you right when i saw you :D”
eww such bad handwritting cause that marker sucked. i was wearing a long sleeve today so no one saw it :(
I forgot to…
Day 5
Make a list of all the things you like about your boyfriend
he’s sweet, smart, funny, sarcastic
can make fun of himself <—-yay confidence! =]
plays the guitar amazingly and sings…not amazingly…but sings haha
isn’t afraid to look like a dork
has a lot of the same interests I do…ummm…ybk? Yeah. Hahah.
we can fight but I know he’ll never hurt...
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